we cool liddat

so yeah here it goes again, my lifeless life.

i wanna talk about what happen last night. me and my dearest friend dzurina did something humiliating HAHA it was embarrassing weyhh. kalau org tahu mesti macam sape dua org perempuan takde life tu? duduk mana ni? homeless eh korg? okay faham sgt org takde laki mmg macam kita kan dzurina, haha atleast kita ada memory tu en, oops tak memoriessssss hahah. aku rinduuu la masa tu , cam tanak balik pun ada la kan, nak je tdo situ, mintak tumpng sehari ;p lastly, dzurina, thks for the blue flower , I loive :))) tu je aku ada en, dia mungkin pernah pegang,and benda tu ada kat ruma aku sekarang, selamanya akan ada kat ruma aku =)

what I like in a guy

1. Brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair
2. Tall | short | same height as me
3. Ear piercings | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other
4. Tattoos | no tattoos
5. Skater | punk | player | indie | cowboy | musician | prep | jock | other
6. Shy | outgoing | in between
7. Mellow | hyper | loud (sometimes) | quiet
8. Blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes
9. Wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other
10. Converse | Vans | Nike | skate shoes | other
11. Listens to: metal | rap | indie | classic rock | country | all | other
12. Compliments too much | compliments when necessary
13. Jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary
14. Sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough
15. Hobbies: computer | music | skating | sports | drawing | fishing | other
16. Loves to hold | loves to be held
17. Tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby
18. Pale | average | tan | dark
19. Cusses a lot | never cusses | moderately cusses | only cusses around friends
20. Wavy hair | curly hair | straight hair | long hair | longish hair | short hair

youre the absolute best I ever knew

been waiting for minutes, hours, days. mmg i suka menanti hehehehe -_- hm no text from you :( afraid to kacau you. birthday kawan u ay harini? maybe youre out, not at home, yeah youre busy kan. have fun anyways.

I'm at home, here on bed 'meniarap' with my baby (laptop) you cross my mind, youre on my mind, wonder what youre doing, wonder what youre up to? I'm sure youre not that busy kan? cuz you did reply to other girls' texts. haa jgn tipu la kan hm takpela, its okayy. i faham :)

oh well here it goes, title explains everything I'm not faking it. YES I mean it. You AF. I'm glad that we've known each other for almost 7months now. I'm happy that I can sometimes make you laugh and mad maybe. I like the way you tease me, you like to tease me kannn? alot ! grr ahah. nasib baik sayang heh tetiba ;p youre so adorable in your own way, too adorable. I remember the first time we text, I yg text kan, thats lame, I know. saje text masa tu, thought u wont reply buttttt, turns out opposite, you replied ! OH HE REPLIED ! yeay ! done, strike one done ! remember this? "izzatirghhh !" "hey shawty shawty shawty !" " baybay ;)" " hey sweetie" ahah thats what I like about you the most. Youre not like them boys yg text perempuan baru kenal "hey nak kenal boleh?" "hey syg, you tgh buat apaa?" baru kenal sehari dah syg, geli aku ahah. hm youre different :) not forget about your goodnight wish, I love em. its cute, way too cute

heres some of your text, i pick random

you pernah bg, "I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART " I LIKE CAPS ! :D

june 24th 2010
slamat mlm sayyyannnggggg ! i syg you , igt tu sampai mati

july 31st 2010
fyi i simpan all your goodnight wish in a folder , all of them . malam ni tkda pulak that wish . nvm lah i nak tdr ni goodnight love. (thts just too sweet, you really simpan all those? hm i wonder kalau skrg ni ada lagi ke tak :/)

august 1st 2010
hey hey whats wrong ? i still ada feel dgn you la , dont be so negative aite . i love you much ! sorry jarang contact you lately i cam busy sikit. (okayy i percaya , tp skrg apa cerita? )

august 5th 2010 - ha ni masa i dekat perak, i wish i could turn back time ;/
morning sweetie . i guess you must be in dreamland , text me back when you get back to reality . hm i ada driving class syg , wish me luck aite ! byebye ae laft ya much ! ;)

august 13th 2010
goodnight sweetie pie , i love you and will always do . sleeptight love

august 15th 2010
nitey nite lil shawty , i love you you like no one ever does . sweetdreams !

september 9th 2010
cause you are one of the most important person in my life . thats why im telling you (: slamat malam ya cewek ! gue cintai loh , ngerti ? muah muah.

september 20th 2010
goodnight heartbeat. (sayang, heartbeat perkataan besar tau hm :(


ha yeah tu je i pilih ahah. im sleepy , nak tidur. nak text you goodnight tapi u tak akan reply, i tahu :/

dekat sini jela

october 16th2010
awak ingt tau ni, saya saaaaayaaaaannggg awak sampai mati. I swear nobody can love you like I do. I love you much AF, sleeptight !

dear af, its friday, 15th october. yeah you still cross my mind tho. sadly kita text pun kan harini, semalam pun tak. called you yesterday, u tgh lepak dgn kawan kawan u. thanks sebab jawab hehe ;p you make me feel better, for real :) anw, i went with dzurina today. pergi klcc. well that was funny, I drove to klcc baby wallaaweyhhh like for real. tak boleh bla ahahah. thanks dzurina teman aku ;p

and AF I love you , more than yesterday <3 :)

love

When I tell you I love you, I dont say it out of habit or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that youre the best thing that ever happened to me. Je t'aime af <3

missing you

hm again, im afraid to bother you with my text/ call

but hey thats nevermind , i "text" you here.

Good morning love. lama tak bg morning text ahah. hm izzati misses you, af :')

heart you <3

I don't need a special day to tell you I love you. its wednesday , october 13th , 10:03pm. I love you now and always

9:11pm

to: YOU

ehey, where are youu? i cant stop thinking bout you :/ afraid to bother you with my text. hmm i really want to talk to you but im afraid to call you. cuz i might be "kacau' u kan at this time, its okay. you have fun (: heartyou

3.05PM

01739969** to 0173263***

heyy, i wonder what are you up to, what are you doing. do i cross your mind today? i mean noww? hmm i miss you, yeah againnn

this is the only way i boleh cakap tanpa i rasa lain, u pun tak akan reply kat sini sama je macam i text u kat phone enn(:

SIGH

hm since you pun macam malas nak text i, malas reply semua kan. dekat sini jela i 'Text' you

1.50pm: izzati
u tgh buat apaa la kann? tdolagi ke apaa? ( hm i miss you :/)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AnMP1oqPTto

october sucks ;(

here again, im izzati. hm this is the only best way to express my feelings. i miss you, yeah you. if youre reading this.. yes i miss youuu hm so much. i maybe act like i dont care but yea only god knows how much i miss you. well this isn't month end yet (dzurina faham la kenapa) tapi i dah lama rindu sbnrnyaa. we used to text everyday, u sent me goodnight wish and all haih i miss all that. i dont know why i miss it soo much. otp lama lama kan.. i ingt lagi last kita otp 2/10/2010 ahah i ingt lah kan, sbb i tgk balik text. lepas otp i ada text u, "heyy, i love you ahah" and you replied "ahah i love you more bay xx" the next day and the next following day ada la text, goodnight wish. okay thats fine, im happy, thanks for making me happy, single text dari u pun dah cukup sebenarnya. hm semua cam berubah je, ntah la kan. setiap bulan pun i macam ni kan. i remember i ada bg one long text last two months. You replied "hey whats wrong ? i still ada feeling dgn you la , dont worry kay . just want to let you know , my feelings to yah gettin strongah now . i love you baybay ! " eventhough kita tak text macam selalu tapii I RINDUUUUU YOU LAH AF! i tahu u je tak en hmmm

october 9th !

haih its been awhile. lama tak text dgn dia ahaha :( rinduuu la sbnrnyaaaaaaaaaa, i miss talking withh you. nak call you, tapi takut, nak text pun takut. ehhh you, if youre reading this, PLEASE know, ingat sampai mati. I SAAAAYYYYAAANNNGGG you ketat ketat ! ha yeah you did say to me, i pun nak cakap. tak nak loose loose.

I LOVE YOU ALWAYSSSSS ! hmm I pun cinta you jugakk lah.

AF always, till' my last breath <3

-_-

aku tahu baru semalam kita jumpa but i miss you already. nak duduk dgn kau boleh? hmm byk kali dah aku cakap. i mean it weyh. hm im bored of life, my life's fucked up y'know. problems keliling pinggang kata aku kan, haih satu satu dtg. tak cukup pasal lelaki. ni kawan pulak. -.- tak faham la or is this proses kita membesar? ahah yelatu, dulu tkda pun masalah macamni kan. heh im tired of this bullshits. tak payah berkawan lagi senang kan? tak payah lelaki , semua pun tak payah. senang hidup, baru ah loner betul. hmm okay, now i miss him. tetiba teringt ,ceh padahaalll -__- and dzurina, he's faking everything kan? please say yes, please. ahah well okay thats all for now. iloveyou dzurina bambam!

here's the truth

i've never been more miserable in my life. to be called weird on a daily basis and not being told the three special words by someone whom makes sure you do pretty much everyday, can sure make life pretty fucked up i must say. also, really, is it wrong to get mad when all you want is fairness? sometimes i get so worked up i regret doing so many things. regret making the choices i made. i mean, things have to be done first before you can actually realise if it's good or bad for you. i just don't understand why people would want to dig up someone's past, can't they just be thankful that they have that person in their life? isn't that what matters most? i mean, just get the fuck out of their life if you don't like them so much. why bother making your life difficult by having someone you don't like in it. i'm always not going to be a hundred percent, deal with it or fuck off

written by,
Izzati

2010/ 2011 wishlist !

Life is short. Too short if you ask me. You're born into this world and before you know it you're out there working trying to support your family. Then you grow old and well, we both know what comes next. One of the things I'm really scared of is not dying but not enjoying life as much as I would like to before I die. Everybody dies yea, but how many can say they actually lived life? And enjoyed it.

a list of my hopes and dreams for the future ( eventhough my future already fucked up) Everyone should make one and try their best to cross out every single one. I think I made it after watching Bucket List and that's one of the best movies about living life to the fullest. Anyways here is my list;


p/s dont laugh!

1- Own a Mini Cooper Cabrio and BMW X6
2- Own an iPhone 4
3- Go out with him, yeah him!
4- a long term relationship
5- travel the world
6- to be rich
7- live in Europe
8- go snowboarding
9- go to Mecca
10- learn French
11- learn Spanish
12- make my mom proud, nearly there. not
13- go to Madagascar
14- Live in Chile
15-get fucked
16- have a threesome haha
17- get to know someone I like , done baby done :p
18- scuba diving
19- float in the red sea
20- own all apple accessories, macs. magic mouse, magic keyboard, time capsule, mac mini.
21- have a heart-to-heart conversation with him.



.....to be continued