Never in my life

its been awhile. new update since umm november. kay cool .

I wish I could tell you everything about how much I love you. I wish I could tell you how much you've meant to me over the past 11 months, Now when I finally have the courage to go out and defined my scared self, there you are turning me down. What would I do to me if I lost you? I know that for sure I would die trying not to re-rise into this cruel world of loneliness that you pushed me into. You meant the absolute world to me, and I meant nothing to you, i know :( you’re the only one that cab make me ROFL, LOL, :'( :D :) :( and all wey, sumpah tak tipu :( Sometimes you do understands me, but I know you act like you dont care at all. it hurts like hell I must say. I LOVE YOU AF, REALLY DO. I dont know why I feel like this though. So if I seem that I don’t love you, I faking it. well, I cant say this to you everyday, hmm all I want you to know. I love you, i love you. really do. AFHR